Thursday, August 9, 2012

5 Good Things (That Mask the Smell of Rotting Fish): Keeping Perspective While Drowning in Depression

Being depressed sucks. It's no fun to write about, and it's even less fun to live.

I've spent the last week viewing the world from, as my dad calls it, "under the waves." Everything is kind've grey and murky down here, and smells a little bit like rotted fish.

The tint and the smell (and the general feeling that everything I have, ever, or will do is a colossal disappointment, both to myself and the world) makes it hard to see the bright spots.

But there are bright spots.

So, taking a page from Gala Darling and her treatise on Radical Self Love, I'm going to try to keep perspective, and to make a list of 5 good things that happen to me on these days.

Here's yesterday's list:
1. Got stuck at a train crossing.
2. Talked to an old friend from the record company.
3. Dangled my feet in a pool.
4. Went out for frozen yogurt with friends.
5. Helped welcome a friend's new nephew to the world with inappropriate Justin Bieber pictures.
Had a formal reading of The Hunger Games Cookbook in the aisle of the supermarket. Featured such instructions as "Take 1 tree rat. Divide into pieces."

I'm not sure if these things make up for the rest of my miserable, rotting-fishy day, but it's probably good for me to try and keep perspective. Not all my days are spent under the waves. Eventually, I'll break the surf. I always do.

Thanks, Hallmark Cards, Inc.


  1. Alright, I'll bite. Why was it a good thing that you got stuck at a train crossing?

    1. Hell yes. I like it best at the front of the line when the train is slow enough to appreciate the graffiti with a receding-horn/click-clack soundtrack.

  2. Hey Marissa, if you're ever looking for people to talk about depression or anxiety with: I think the DBSA group in Boulder is pretty great.

  3. I love the title of your blog:) Thanks for stopping by and viewing my posts. It's also a good thing that you have a blog to vent your feelings and that you can do it so well.

  4. I'm sorry you're feeling so depressed. I'm not sure if this will help cheer you up a little bit, but I think your blog is awesome. :)

    I need to get a copy of that Hunger Games cookbook too! Ha!

    Anyway, I hope you feel better soon! Hugs!